met dear zeni today,
like finally!!
next target, kengmijun!
ahahahhahaa
talked alot alot..
updates on each others life..
i missed her so badly..
had been ages since i talked to her.
she had moved..
to nanyang girls hostel.
missed out all these updates of her life..
thats how long we didnt talked..
decided to do a dumb thing
HAHAHAHAH

but,
i still believe..
shes one of those,
who cld give me those opinions i need.
thats why i had been so silly.
real silly.

now ive waken up from my dream.
the bubbles had burst.
things can be much simpler.
just the way you look at it.


历史。

back from the kota tinggi camp.
first time ever,
experienced a mass diarrhoea during a camp
tragic.
esp those up on the mountain peak.

challenging, enjoyable camp.
with horrible toilets.
thats my only complain.

highlights of the first day;
waterfall treking.
just like any other treking,
walked and walked.
everyone kept up.
only pity
didnt managed to reach the real waterfall

the second day.
kayaking.
first try.
nice cool weather,
before the crazy heavy rain came along.

third day,
drastic.
dead beat you can say.
climbed the damn mountain,
and turned back just before reaching the summit.
all in a day.
wahpiang.
drained..

nevertheless,
i've gained alot in this camp.
very very much..
at least,
now i appreciate this statement.
" when you're tired,
that's when you see one's true character."

super tired, but fufilling.
i am glad that i managed to do what i said.
put down all sj stuff when i decide to study.
and now,
pick them back up agn.
just back from the badminton duty.
consecutive two days.
also meaning, meeting the same people for two consecutive days
but it was a happy time.
talking abt our usual topics.
reunion dinner liddat.
HAHAHA
exams over.
time to pick up my pace and chiong abit sj thingy now..
happily!
hahahahahha



if venting anger will really solve problems,
ill smash a thousand plates immediately.
but nah.
my life's much more than those peanuts problem.
the ability to move on and not stumble at one point.
thats a winner.

end of summer test.
i've made a promise.
its also a promise to myself.
i said give me some time.
and now, after the summer test,
i think im really prepared now.
only now then i think i am.

i'm at a loss of what to do.
dont know what i should do.
i know there are two options.
either to
face it out and open,
or to just,
let it be.

currently,
in a dilemma.
on one hand,
i think it should be trashed.
in a totally cooled manner.
but,
after this period of time,
after the storm is finally over,
i dont want to be like raking up everything
seems like creating trouble.
i can only say
i dont know.

i am really lost, upon this issue, at this moment.

我不奢望挽回这段友谊
但这一切不可抵赖，
是一短完美的回忆。
但我没有一丝的后悔。
遵守着我的原则。
这一切，就只能怪事情的巧合吧。
那么巧，是三人行。
那么巧，落单的是我。
那么巧，我的个性，
把这是视为友情的背叛。
妳说的话，
可能没发现，但已经点破了信任俩字。
妳的出发点，
可能像让我好过点。
但我也把它解读为，
是时候该离开了。
我这决定，也是从这时而肯定下来。
经天这样，谁也没料到。
但对我来说，这一切的一切，
只是时间上的问题。

只应，我感到背叛。

silence, for the time being.

the word is awkward.
things had been so weird these days.
well,
theres no longer an issue there.
but it just felt like..
i dunno whether i can say this,
but,
worse than a stranger.

things will probly get better.
given time.
i feel so.
but somehow,
somehow
a voice ringing in my head.
time seems to be just an..
excuse.

okay,
focus, get back to work.

understand yourself more;
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx


Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

its time to put everything down.
focus is the word.

life's hectic.
suuuuuuuuuuuuuper hectic.
if only,
i have like 56 hrs a day.
ohman.

i feel the stress.
i feel the uncertainty.
woahhh.

i didnt expect myself to be feeling scared.
but to be frank,
i really do.

i dont want to face the music.
just let it pass and die off.
things will be just fine. (:

calm; and think.

hehehehehehheeee,
had a nice great laugh today.
watched IRON MAN!
hahahahhaha,
honestly, i didn't expect it to be that nice.
=D
watched it with classmates..
first time since jae?
hmmmm...
theres aaron, ravin, jassmine, and my mojojojo!

well, things goes on as usual,
not much updates..
studies going on as usual,
things that are quite bad remained as well.
i admit, its such a pity.
but, ill also say,
things ain't the same anymore.
no more.
all the feelings in the past changed.
i wonder wld it be temporarily,
or issit going to go on like this.
i've got no idea
i guess no one do.
hah.

well, let the nature take its course..
thats what all tell me.
hahahhahahhahhahahaa.
it doesn't affect me anymore now.
if things are this way,
i'm so not interested,
and so, i cant be bothered.
or put it in a nicer way.
i would no longer be bothered.